sedih

"lgi 1,ak bkan nk hsut ke peke....tpi zai tuh,endah xendah je kat ka.....

sowi to say...wa cya la lu leh dpat lgi bek......

btol dak....."

sy berasa sgt2 sedih bilaa ade org yg ckp dye seperti itu . sy lagi kenal dye drpd awk okay ? dun't judge people if u dont know ANYTHING about him ! maybelah setengah org akn ckp , "da la cema . kaw bakup zai je tuh sbb kaw kn syg dye. cinte itu buta ."

whatevalah . kwn2 yg dekat ngn sy tentu phm sy sbb diorg taw zai sy bkn zai yg dulu . andai kate kalo mende2 lame 2 na jd balek , bia sy yg tnggung . time 2 korunk sume na kutuk sy pung sy ta heran . sy masih yakin ngn zai sy .

ekceli , i have one conversation with sumbody last night . dye meluah kn segala nye pd sy smlm . admit sy sedih . mle2 sedih terharu . tp btmbah sedih bila dye berani mengeluarkn statement itu . sy ta slhkn dye sbb dye ta kenal lagi syg sy .

btw , thanks sbb masih ambil berat . percayalah . sy sgt2 BAHAGIA sekarang ini . ckp lah ape korunk na ckp .

P/S : zai ade interview esok . hopefully awk dpt kerja 2 sygg :) may pray is always with u . mlm ni mcm2 yg jd . maybe ade hikmah kut . goodluck syg !

unintended

You could be my unintended

Choice to live my life extended

You could be the one I’ll always love

You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions

You could be the one I’ll always love

I’ll be there as soon as I can

But I’m busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged

All my dreams and all my balance

She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended

Choice to live my life extended

You should be the one I’ll always love

I’ll be there as soon as I can

But I’m busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

I’ll be there as soon as I can

But I’m busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you

hey ! act. ape makne disebalek lagu ni yg berkaitan dgn sy ? ouh . damn. still ta dpt na tngkap . sape2 ley tlong terangkan utk sy ta ? lagu ni sgt2 menghantui dri sy .

maybe its a good thing

(-) things

*da ta de sape na teman sy balek shah alam agy .

*da ta de sape na dtg shah alam jmpe sy .

*da ta de sape na bwk sy jln2 g kl .

*da ta de da na jln2 p mlake :'(

(+)things

*smakin dekat , bila balek epoh dye ade .

*hopefully dye ade mase utk jmpe sy .

*hopefully dye na amek dan anta sy ke stesen bas . :')

dulu sume ni sy berie2 na . tp skunk tbe2 rase cm laen lak . whatevalah ! sy sokong ape je awk buad sygg . yg penting , jgn pernah lpe kn gf awk yg comot ni . iLy .

kecewa .

dgn tajuk entry sy diatas ia jelas menunjukkan bahawa sy sgt2 lah kecewa sekarang ini . :(

terima kasih awak . sy sgt2 hampe :(

sy jd chef dirumah :)

hye sume . sy na cite pase aktiviti sy dirumah sepanjang cuti ni . as u all know lahh kn , jumaat kn kita cuti fer nuzul Al-quran , n selase cuti fer independence day ! yeay ! sblom terlupa . SELAMAT HARI MERDEKA YG KE 53 . 

jap2 . smbung cerita , sy ponteng klas pd hari isnin ini kerana na direct cuti terus sampai selase haa . haha . ekceli , jumaat ni da stat cuty utk raye da . tp saje je gedik na cuti lame2 agy . haha .

okay , sepanjang dirumah ni , sy telah menjadi seorang anak yg sgt rajin untuk parents nye dimane sy telah menyediakan 3 jenis cake utk mereka dan adik2 sy . haha . 

pade hari jumaat , puding kek roti coklat telah sy sediakan okayy ?? mule2 buat 2 sgt2 la nerves bab fist time wat . Alahamdulillah , kek sy menjadi but buruk sedikit haa . adik2 sy suka kan nye n ta ketinggalan makcik dan jiran sy eika . diorg sume kate sedapp . kembang kut bilaa denga . haha .

ta dinafikan , mmg buruk tp marvellous :)

then arini , ari ahad . sy bercadang na wat cupcakes coklat je . but mak bg idea suh try wat kek terus . so alang2 terus la wat haa . btw , lpe na gtaw . resepi kek2 yg sy buat ni bknlah sy belajar dr mak sy . mak sy ta rety pung sebenanrnye na wat2 kek2 ni haa . so sy search dlm internet . dunia da serba moden kn ? ta yah ssh2 na g kedai beli buku resepi . :)

and akhirnye kedua2 kek sy menjadi dan inilah hasilnyaa .

ni cupcakes coklat .

peneman setia sy ketika buad kek td .

kek butter choc chip :)

hasil kedua2 kek sy :)

again , cupcakes .

p/s : ta saba na wat kek utk my bf . na bg dye rase air tgn gurlfren haa . hahaha :D

missing you

tersgt2lah merindui si kedingg :(

rendu . rendu . rendu . rendu . rendu !

rendu nyer !

video ni di ambil mase suprise beday party zai arytuh . hee :)

rendu lahh na g melaka agy . btw , thanks 2 wana , apek , wawa n acap fer that day . kalo korunk ta dtg mst ta kn jd nye suprise ni .

bilaa agy weyh na g melaka ? rendu2 ! :(

zai ,

gilaa rendu kt awaklah sygg . cepat la 3 aribulan :)

iLy !

p/s : ta saba weyh na raye . haha :D

btw video ta ley upload . cm bodo . huu :(

len hari lah ye sy upload :D

sorry

smlm sy da wat zai hampe ngn sy . sorry syg . i'm not da bes gf fer u . huu :(

insyaAllah , pasni org ta wat agy okayy ?? iLy kedingggg :)

=.=

sejak 2 menjak ni , sy tbe dok teringat kt sorang ni haa . adei , pase pe lak tbe2 teringat neh ? 

jangan dok wat pasai la cema . jage skit aty n perasaan org laen . jd cm dulu baru taw , baru pdn mke !

okay , from now pliss go away from me. p la jauh2 weyh . =(

rendu wey :(

td saje je bukak2 blog . then abby de komen kt 1 post sy ni . so tbe2 terdetik la na bukak blog dye . bacelah entry dye semue . sgt2 rendu bila bace entry dye about raye tuh . sumpaaa , rendu . so kwn2 , taun ni pastikan kte sume still ley smbut rye centu agy lahh okayy ?? 

then skroll down bce entry2 dye yg lame . ouh damn ! agy2 aa sedey bilaa bace pase kwn2 kt chulan dlu . dye dok citaa pase sy . abby , sumpaa rendu na dok 1 dorm ngn kaw . na suh kaw ekat rmbut ak . loker sebelah2 . susun bku smbil gossiping ngn kaw . mengadu kaseh kt kaw . ngintai arjuna aty kt dorm , dwn mkn sumee . rendu wey ! :(

but i know , mende2 yg sonok centu da ta kn dpt da na ulang balek . so , kne trime la yg sume 2 just jd knangan yg terindah je dlm idup as long as kte sume ta lupekannye okayy ?? 

so kwn2 tersayang sume . abby , awer , jaja , ziela , fiena , angah , diana , sheera , afie , awie , masri , shidi , shapit , ody , amer , shaher , bojot , k.e , hamdan , baim , ejoy . i will never forget our memories in hostel chulan . tersangat lah rendu wey !

pijoy , apek , prem , ragu , najib , ehsan , yus , mickey , azam . ta penah lpekan korunk . even kt sini da jmpe membe2 yg laen , ta bnyak mase da ngn korunk cm dlu , korunk tetap dihaty . hope sgt our frenship will never end okay ?? 

sgt2lah rendu zmn2 dulu :(

kwn2 5 sciene , shima rendu awk sume lahh ='(

seroja =')

kelas malam :D

b4 SPM 2007

lloikee

i loikkee dis video . hee :)

sorry kedingg , org post video ni tanpe pengetahuan awk lahh . hee :D

test , test n test .

dis week full with test .

adoi . naek demam sy ni pk pase test .maklum laa . skunk da degree , not dip anymore . so kne la blajo lebih sikit haa . but still da same je . aish . ape na jd ni ASHIMA ??

isnin : ticketing test (susah)

selasa : LAW test (++susah)

rabu : T&T test . 2 pung kalo da de dlm ireland . (+++susah sbb ta penah phm )

kamis : ta de kelas . so cuty lahh . YEAY ! :D

jumaat : mandarin test + listening test (+susah)

asal laa study ni ssh sgt haa ?? kalo laa study ni snng .kompem sy na smbung sampai MASTER . haha . btw , wish me luck :)

facebook ='(

kwn2 .
sy terpakse DEACTIVATED kn fb sy atas sbb2 yg berikut :-

1. kalo sy da dpt fb . 1 kerja pung ta jd .
2. kalo sy da dpt fb , stdy sy terbantut .
3. kalo sy da dpt fb , 24 jam sy on9 .
4. kalo sy da dpt fb , sy da ta ngat mende laen dah .

itu semua yg berkaitan ngn sy . ekceli sbb utama sy deactive kn fb sy kerana :-

1. dlm fb sy ske menggatal (zai yg kate)
2. dlm fb sy mula menggedik (zai yg kate)
3. bila zai on fb , dye ta post ape2 kt wall sy , sy akn SENTAP =')
4. n bila zai stalker fb sy , dye lak yg akn SENTAP ! haha .


ekceli sy rase dye yg jeles . haha . ta pe lah zai . kali ni org ikot lah ckp awk . mmg la awk ckp 'ta pe , ta ya lah delete . t awk sunyi lak tnpe fb.' sdgkan t abeh haa dok perli2 . poyolahh zai . hahaha .

denga je sy ckp na delete fb trus dye ckp , 'eh , awk gne fb org ea ?? kte kongc taw ??' ckp je lahh na nmpk sweet , kongc2 fb . aauww , aauuww . haha .

mmg lah bole je na kongc . tp ta bes la kn ?? fb dye , rmi lah kwn2 dye . kwn2 sy kt fb sy laa . huu . ta pe lah . ikotkan saje lahh . kalo rse ta ley gak idop tnpe fb sy , t pandai2 la pjuk dye na active balek acc fb sy tuh .

so the conclusion , ini sume fer da trial first . later will decide laen =')

i will miss u my sweet fb ='(

frens , find me here =')

bye bye fb !

halloo :D

salam ramadhan sume :)
sumpaa rendu sgt na update blog .
tp mse n mood yg ta menginzinkan .

da posa da kn ??
jap je then da na raye .
tahun ni again , maybe raye agy ngn zai .
so kesimpulannye cema da baek la ngn zai .
hope everything will be okay .
jgn la ade agy mslh yg cm dulu .
huu :(

mak da taw da hbngn ktorg .
mle2 mmg dye ta kasik n perli abeh , but now dye da okay .
pe yg penting katenye , blajo dulu .
baekk makk :)
ily <3<3

hey :)

hello bloggers :)

lama gilaa ta update blog ni .

biaselahh , kemalasan melande PLUS ta dak tenet . huu :(

now , bz with my study kt tmpt bru ni haa .

UiTM SHAH ALAM .

degree in tourism management . ceee , cm bgs la kn ngn degree 2 ?? what the ??

haaha .

ekceli sgt2 lah penat bab fac jauh gilaa ngn ostel . kene naek bas . n slalunye naek rapid .

abeh wet ak sbb rapid je . huu :(

tp class wat mse ni fun jee . de la membe baru 10 , 12 org . hee :)

btw , sy mcm da temui balek lah cinte sy :))

deeply in love laa konon nyee . hahaha :)

hopefully sume bejalan ngn lancar lahh . mak pung da okayy ngn dye . alhamdulillah :D

ni je lah na cite . t update agy ea ?? t8 cre sume .

with a lot of love :)

goodbye :'(

PENANG : tbe2 ade rse ta snggup na tngglkan awk :(

SHAH ALAM : tbe2 ade rse ta ready lah na jmpe awk :(

i will miss u guy so bad , badly :(

sorry :(

lama sgt ta update blog .

mls ,

ta de idea ,

tataw na cite ape ,

byk sgt cita smpai tataw na citaa ape . :(

nex week na g shah alam . futher my study there . hope i can do it :)

n i'm still in dilemma because of him . haty masih syg tp takut untuk trime . jnj yg ditaburkan terlampulah byk . n still ta yakin ngn dye . sorry to say .

insyaAllah , t da de mood , blog ni akn aktif n comel semule :)

mood : sedey sgt na tngglkn kwn2 yg still kt uitm penang . i will miss u all badly :(

n tersgtlah rendu kt kwn2 pasir salak :(

kLia with my beloved ex classmate :)

smlm , khamis bersamaan 20 may 2010 , ak da follow dak2 spL iaitu kwn2 tersyg ak mse kt kolej dlu p trip ke kLia . sumpaa sgt2 la seronok . thanks sgt kt en.hashim sbb sudi na bwe ex student dye ni pegy . dye mmg sporting :)

n fer the information , ex bf ak pon g la gak . haha . dlm bas kami pkt kne drop je dlm 2 . sebok diorg nyanyikan lgu sang mantan wat ktorg . haha :)

n cbe korunk pk kn ,pe maksud gmbar ni :)

gilaa talak ?? hahaha :D

i saw him again !

skunk ni ak kt kolej lame ak . (kolej komuniti pasir salak) . lepaking here sbb na on9 .

b4 g on9 , p teman my bff dlu p mockrest , na amek ketas2 soklan amali dye . n time2 2 jmpe fara (perempuan yg bersame xbf ku skunk T_T) smbng2 cm ta de pape yg penah jd .

then fy pon de skly , so aty ak mle rse ta sdp . slalunye kt ne de fy , zai pon de skly . n mmg sah ! dye de kut . ak nmpk zai kt dlm mockrest siap senyum2 agy tngok ak . but ak wat dunno je . huu :(

dlm sebok2 dok smbng ngn fara , yuz n yat . zai dtg dr blakng . usik ak then tego ak cm ta de mende penah jd . ce bygkn ?? ape yg ak rse time 2 ?? sumpaa cuak gilaa . tp ak wat tataw je . tego je cm bese . dye dtg kafe then curik kopok ak . mmg nmpk gilaa cm ta de pe yg penah jd .

but dlm aty , Allah je yg taw pe yg ak rse . admit , ak mmg rendu gilaa kt dye . tp na wat cena . kalo sume ni jd bab salah ak ta pe aa gak . but sume ni mmg bkn sala ak :(

kalo la mase bole beputa lek (T_T)

sweet 20th

da tue da minah ni . :)

hello peeps . as u all know , today is my bday . yg ke 20 thn. arghh ! ak da tue . huu . mcm2 mende ak na ubah sempena ngn umo ak yg da meningkat naik ni .

alhamdulillah . rmi gilaa kwn yg wish . terharu sgt2 . thanks sbb still ngat beday cema ni . hee .

n the most sadness thing bile kul 1 td , 1 mcj msok . dye yg anta . dye wish bday . dye suh ak hidup bhgie . dye mntak maap sbb dye ta ley jd yg terbaek tuk ak . dye kate dye kecewa ngn dr dye sbb wat hal ngn ak . dye da ta na pnjg2kn cite sbb dye kte dye taw yg hbngn ktorg da berakhir da pungg . bertambah2 sedih bile dye kate dye sgt3 rndukn ak . huu :( sumpaa menangis bile dpt mcj 2 . even tataw la sume 2 ikhlas dr aty dye ke ta , tp ak still besyukur . hopefully dye akn berubah menjadi manusia yg baek2 suatu ary nnt :)

ta pe la kn ? cite yg da lepas 2 lepas laa . come on cema . jum mulekan idop bru d umur yg bru . yakin ngn dr sndiri . insyaAllah , suatu ary nnt Allah akn bg ak seseorg yg baik . AMINN .

hepi bday cema . may Allah bless u . pliss love urself :D

i saw him :(

lme ta update blog . biase laa . sakan bercuty . so na cite pase fist week stat cuty ni . mle2 bz ngn family . sepupu sedare sume dtg ipoh . anak pak cik ak kawen . so cm meriah n bes laa . ye laa . da lme ta jmpe kn ??

then celebrate mothers day n celebrate bday ak . awai kn celeb ?? hehehe :D pastu ari isnin 2 ak gerak p cL (changket lade) . p jmpe kwn2 tersayang . sumpaa renduu gilaa n best sgt2 .

fer sure da g sane , mst la ade kebarangkalian na terjumpe ngn zai kn ?? mklum laa . 1 tempat je .

tp ta jmpe pon tuk mlm fist n ari yg second . diorg de kte diorg bertembung ngn zai . tp ak je yg ta . selamat :)

btw , mse kt cL . fara iaitu perempuan yg mnyebabkn ktorg break ni dtg jmpe ak . berie2 haa . tp ak respek gilaa kt dye . dye brani na jmpe ak , baek gilaa lyn ak , say sorry depan2 ak . sumpaa . baek sgt . n ak tngok dye sgt2 la hot . no wonder la kn zai g kt dye . ak ni ape laa yg ade . huu . ak rse diorg sgt2 la sesuai n secocok . ta pe la . if zai n fara hepi , ak pon hepi gak . ak da ley time hakikat da .

n pg td b4 na siap2 na balek , ak sgt2 ta sngke yg ak akn nmpk gak zai . Allah je la yg taw cane perasaan ak time ak nmpk dye . b4 dis kn ak sgt2 rendu , then bile da nmpk , agy2 la rendu .

cuakk gilaa ak rse . shaking tok bdn ak . yg ta thnnye membe2 ak ley lak nganjing2 ak ngn dye .

ktorg ta jmpe pon . just tngok dr jauh je . siyesly , ak ta de kekuatan agy na jmpee dye . huu .

n hopefully ak ley lpe kn dye sepenuhnye . insyaAllah :)

p/s : da mle rendu kwn2 kt cL . jap gilaa jmpe . ta puas .

selamat tinggal bukit mertajam :)

yeahh . dgn tajuk entry diatas , maka msti rmi yg taw kn ?? esok adalah ary yg sgt2 ak tnggu .:)

u all know what ? sy na balek my hometown . bercuty selama hampir 2 bln . yeesss2 !

n sok adelah untuk paper terakhir iaitu paper tourism geography n ak tataw sama ada ak ley jwb ke ta . bygkn , mlm ni bru ak stat membace . tbe2 nyesal terdetik didalam aty :(

n ferr nex sem tataw agy sama ade still di sini o sebaliknye . bergantung lah pade keadaan nnt :)

seriesly ta saba agt na balek n na g lepak with my bff kt cL 2 . n fer surely i am very sad because they r no longer been here with me coz diorg da na abeh stdy da kt kkps tuh . n pasni sume akn berjauhan n tataw la snng ta na jmpe ceni agy .

i will miss them much ! :(

they r the besfren :)

my syg :)

admit , miss every single of them .

i will miss them a lot .

fer you :)

i hate u but deeply in my heart i still miss u . not the cruel u but the KIND of u :(

i hope u miss me too even u r happy with her :)

i do still love u but i dont want u to come back into my life because my heart is already CLOSED fer u .

t8 care buddy , some day u will looking fer me .

n fer dat time i will say to you :

sorry , my heart is not fer u because u had crush it b4 . thanks YANGG .

p/s : obviously , i miss that yangg word :(

the RECORD .

record !

mmg record !

record gilaaaaaa!

arini fon ta bebunyik lnsung .

ye . ta tipu . lnsung ta bebunyikk .

ta da sape da na mcj n kol ak da . huu :(

yeelaa . da ta de sape na care pase ak da kn skunk ?

tbe2 rse cm ta na gne fon la . bule ke kalo cenggitu heh ?

haha . ta pena cenggini weyh . fist time lam idop neh . adoiyai .

ta pe la . maybe de hikmah kn ? wet ta byk da abeh na topup2 da .

sok de paper . tour guiding . 4 jam kredit . hopefully leyh wat . tkt nii .

sumpaa . ta saba gilaa na balek . dok sni masalah ssh gilaa na lpe . asyik pk je .

cepat la ari jmaat . cepat la . cepat la ak kate ! eee. sumpaa sgt ta saba2 na blek ni .

kat sini sgt2 sunyi . t mule la rindu . rindu . dan rindu agy . cane na lpekn ni ? any idea ?

k lah . ta mo tuleh byk2 da . na smbung stdy . then na tdo . ta saba na abeh final ni . yeeehha :)

p/s: hepy bday bojot . ak rendu kaw laa .:(

n after ten days , it will be my turn become 20 :(

ak da pk mcm2 gilaa da tuk bday ak t , tp sume cm ta jd je .

t ak cite kt entry yg len oke ? bye2 !

a suck week .

today is almost a week after that hurt incident happen . and fer this week i am really2 mkn aty till many people say to me : cema , asal nmpk cm da susut ? kaw mnyeksa bdn ea ? .

that statement is not true . bkn menyeksa bdn cume rse ta slera na mkn . da kenyang mkn aty snirik . hahha .

n fer dis 1 week mcm2 mende yg ak da blaja , tempuh , n faham . mende yg ak sgt2 dpt blaja dlm tempoh ni , 'sorry seems to be the hardest word'. mmg ssh kn na say sorry even da wat sala ?

hopefully , i'll become more better after this . berharap sgt dpt lupekan sgale2nye . na truskan idop mcm bese tnpe masalah2 ceni .

go cema , go ! n a very good news . this friday i will pulang ke hometown ! yeeehhaa :)

p/s:rendu na mkn mskn mak :))

suaraku berharap~hijau daun

Disini aku masih sendiri
merenungi hari-hari sepi
Aku tanpamu
Masih tanpamu

Bila esok hari datang lagi
Ku coba untuk hadapi semua ini
Meski tanpamu, Oo~ meski tanpamu

Bila aku dapat bintang yang berpijar
Mentari yang tenang bersamaku disini
Ku dapat tertawa menangis merenung
di tempat ini aku bertahan

Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku
Aku disini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Kalau aku masih tetap disini
Ku lewati semua yang terjadi
Aku menunggumu, oo~ aku menunggu

**hanya suka denga lirik lagu ni je . ta berkaitan ngn ape2 pon :)

just like that word :)

ckup2 la 2 .

cemaa . jgn la rendu . tlong laa . jgn laa rendu .:(

ckup la 2 weyh . kaw da ckup saket aty da kn?? so wat pe na rendu ??

ak rendu dye yg baek tu . dye yg amek berat pase ak . dye yg denga ckp ak . dye yg sygkn ak .dye yg dnga msalah ak . bkn dye yg kejam 2 .

tp dye kejam cemaa . mmg la rmi yg kate dye sygkn kaw . dye cm da nyesal . dye tataw na say sorry kt kaw cane , tp dye kejam ngn kaw . kalo btol dye syg kaw , dye ta kn tergamak wat kaw ceni . cemaa3 . tlong la syg dri sndiri . jgn syg org lebey sgt . t kaw gak yg saket !!

tp ak na wat cane ?? perasaan ak yg ceni . ak da cbe buang da jauh2 dye 2 . tp makin dkt lak ak rse . makin ak na lpe , makin ak rendu . makin ak na lepaskn dye , makin ak saket . ak na wat caner ? kdng2 ak da rse ak da ta terdaye .

cemaaaaa . tlong la . ak merayu kt kaw . jgn dikenangkn agy org yg kejam cm dye 2 . caye laa , kaw pasti akn dpt sumbdy yg better dr dye . tlong la syg dr sndiri . kaw ngat kn pe jnj kaw ?? dye 2 kejam . smpai skunk dye ta cr kaw pon , so ta kejam ke 2 ??

ENOUGH CEMA . ENOUGHH !!!

formspring.me

sape tnye , dye comell ;'D http://formspring.me/cema90

curi word sha :)

rasa 0 gilaa skunk . so cane na stdy ctu 265 nieh ?huu .

btw , td bce blog shasha . sukaa gilaa ngn ayat dye .

Guys,

Once you lose the girl who appreciates you a lot.

Who loves you a lot.

Who misses you a lot.

And the girl who tried to be the perfect for you.

Then its your biggest regret. :)

like BIGGEST REGRET word :)

p/s: sorry sha bab i curik ur word . hee .

hati yg kaw sakiti . rossa .

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ku menangis
harus slalu kau tahu
aku lah hati yang telah kau sakiti

*hanye skadar lagu . tiada unsur pengharapan disini .

realized :')

ouh shit !!

cuaknye ngn paper makerting sok . huu ;'(

kaw mst bole cema ! buktykan k ??

btw , it is true dat sorry seems to be the hardest word ??

kalo btol , no wonder laa 1 perkataan sorry pon ta de dtg kt ak . ceit .

ssh sgt ke na meminte maaf ??

choi2 .

td mak kol n mak da taw sumenye .

n she said : alhamdulillah . de hikmahnye kamu ta kwn ngn dye . bab 2 laa fmily kte ta bg sgt kamu kwn ngn dye . jgn sngke laki ni baek sgt . ta pe , bia kn dye yg penting along blaja rjin2 . buktykn kt sume org termasok la dye 2 yg kamu ni bkn clang2 org . dye akn nyesal ngn perbuatan dye . jgn pk sgt pasai dye , blaja agy pnting dr dye . ngat je pesan mak .

ouh mummy , u r really2 understand what i'm feel ryte now . love u , u r the best mother in da world . i love u !!

now i'm realize . slame ni dlm blog ak ni , ak salu ckp ak rendu zai , syg zai . ta de pon ckp syg mak , syg abah n family sume . then , nmpk kn ?? org yg ak salu agong2kn , disyng2kn wat ak cm smpah but org yg ak ta mention syg dlm ni still syg ak no matter what . sumpaa , ak sgt2 sedar skunk .

n mak gak pesan , ta ya berdendam lme2 . maafkn je dye . 2 jln terbaek n Allah syg manusie yg pemaaf . so , even zai smpai skunk still ta mntak maaf kt ak , ak da maafkan dye da . n also thanks to him bab if dye ta wat ceni , ak ta penah sedar tntg org yg sgt2 menyayangi ak . thank you so much !

cme ak arap , Allah akn bg dye hidayah , n biala dye rase yg dye sgt rugy bab dye da buang sumbdy yg terlampau sygkn dye smpai ta penah nmpk kslahan dye .tp syg 2 sume just fer b4 dis . admit yg ak still de prasaan syg agy kt dye , tp ak skly2 takan give him a third , fourth n bpe byk agy chan . aty ak btol2 da ancur . i'm just miss zai yg sgt baek n bkn zai yg kejam seperti skunk .

zai , thanks a lot .

mummy , daddy , i am really love u all .

friends , ur support give me a strong heart to still go on wit my life .

cema , jdkn sume ni pngajaran . Allah maha adil :')

puaskah ?

Puaskah kau lukaiku

Puaskah kau sakitiku

Puaskah khianatiku

Puaskah hoo.. Sayangku

Di manakah nuranimu

Di mana akal sehatmu

Sekarang kau campakanku

Setelah kau dapatkanku

Mungkin hanya bila ku mati

Kau kan berhenti tuk menyakiti

Sampai kapan aku begini

Terus begini

Terus engkau lukai

Ingatlah saat yang lalu

Saat kau peluk diriku

Tapi kini semua lalu

Kau tega khianatiku

grr !

ape yg ak rse skunk ?

-sdeyh

-kecewa

-tertipu

-dipermaenkan

-bodoh

-bengang

-na g bunuh org

-na g penampar org

-na g tumbuk2 bdn org

-na jmpe mak , abh

-na bejalan dlm ujan smbil 2 na nanges puas2 .

-na jerit sekuat aty

lastly ak na ckp kt depan2 dye , ak benci kaw binatang !!

terima kasih !

terima kasih utk sgale2nye . ckup lah untuk setaun 5 bln ni ak da tertipu . kaw bole jd pelakon . kalah aaron aziz . haha .

laki yg baek utk perempuan yg baek n sbaleknye . moge2 Allah bls sume nye .

cema , pe yg mak , abah , opah ckp 2 sume btol . len kly jgn blakang kn kluarge . kalo kluarge kte ta oke , bermakne ta oke la tu . ngat 2 cema . pe2 family first .

after this , boyfriend ??

ta lagy kut . ckup la ak tertipu ngn baeknye slame ni .

so ,

first love = GAGAL . ak ta lyk tuk dye .

then de org na , ak tolak sbb bute ta nmpk keikhlasan dye . now , dye da bhgie wit her gf .

second love = GAGAL . kly ni dye yg ta lyk utk ak . c PENIPU BESAR !

I HATE U DAMN FUCK , FUCK , FUCK MUCH !

moge2 Allah membalas blek ape yg ak rse ni kt kaw .

biaq pdn muka !

exam week .

hye peeps . lme gilaa ta update blog . hee . sorry , just busy with my stuff n sperti tjuk entry kt ats tuh , i'm busy wit my final exam fer my third semester . fuuhh .

td bru je lps one paper . paper bel 311 . quite ssh tp Alhamdulillah bab still leyh jwb . cme tataw btol ke ta pe yg ak jwb tuh .

really2 hope yg result ak sem ni maintain n kalo leyh na la naek skit dr sem lps tp ntah la . sem ni mcm bnyak gilaa maen . huu ;'(

n hopefully lah ak dpt p degree tuh . na sgt2 p . knape na sgt2 p ?? hmm . ntah la . ;'))

oke lah . na menyambung perjuangan utk 4 agy paper . after dis paper marketing plak . n sgt beharap paper ni bole dpt A !! AMINN .

kwn2 tersayang . doakan kejayaan sy ye ;'DD

ya Allah , ENGKAU permudahkanlah segala urusan ku , kuatkn lah daya peringatanku , terangkn lah hatiku dgn NUR hidayah mu dan perkenankanlah doa2ku .

AMIN YA RABBAL ALAMIN ;'DD

ily .

i love u more than words . tq ;']]

celaru . keliru . buntu ;'[

yarh . 4 sure i'm still angry with what u do . sape yg ta mrh kn ? kalo pompan len , bf dye wat centu diorg pon mst mrh punyer . se sporting2 gf 2 pon , de gak thpnye . huu .

bkn na slhkn dye sorng je . maybe ak pon de wat salah yg m'buatkan dye wat centu . huu . admitt , smpai skunk ak still ta dpt na mng aty dye . huu .

rse cm na stop kn smpai sni je hbngn ktorg . mmg syg , tp kalo still ceni , ta de prubhn wat pe na truskan ?? hmm .

so skunk ak btol2 keliru , celaru n buntu . walo cane pon , i'm still need him . huu .

ak pon tataw ak tuleh pe je . huu .

rendu

smlm seharian ak ta mcj zai . kedit ta de n mls na bg mcj gune number org len . dye de anta 1 mcj gne number fy , tp ak ta rep pape pon .

nape je ta balas ??

nta , maybe tacing kut ngn dye . huu ;'[[

mood ; rendu gilaa ;'[[

frustrated ;'[

hiash . lately ni makin menjadi2 lak sakit aty nih . huu .

selagi bole saba , saba je la kan ? hmm ;'[[

ya Allah , kaw berikanlah kekuatan padeku . runtuhkanlah keEGOannye n lembutkan la hatynye . bukekanlah matenye n sedarkannye kewujudan ak dlm hidupnye . hanye kaw yg maha mengetahui ape yg ak alami dlm haty ini . huu ;'[[

frustrated gilaa !

p/s ; bru lek dr pangkor . btol2 enjoy plus2 fer de snorekling n congrates 2 9 kawaii travel agent !

sedey ;'[[

haloo fwens :')

just wanna 2 start my entry with happiness . actually sedih ni . huu ;'((

sedih pase pe ?? maleh na gtaw . t kalo ak rajen , ak gtaw la oke ??

huu ;'[[

MOOD : sedih berbaur hmm , ntah laa .

smile like a sun !

hello peeps ;')
currently i'm in csc class . haha . kalo ta de class csc , ta update la kutt . sian en. saiful . bla , bla , bla kt dpn . tp ak elek je update blog . hee .


actually want 2 share with u alls my feeling a.k.a mood rite now . hee :']]


gilaa bahagia skunk . rase cm disayangi n hope it lasts longer lah kn ? hee . syg ! ily laa XD


kwn : gilaa rendu kt buncet , mon , jaja , awer , n sume bff . biler na lepak same2 ni . huu . :'[[


kwn2 uitm : gilaa gempak la skunk . thanks korunk ! even salu je kne kn ak , tp korunk gempak sioott ! haa . XDD



bye2 !

p/s : mg neh p pangkor . hope besh cm p klantan trngganu rituh ;']] g.lucks 9 kawaii travel agents XDD

currently kt klas csc agy fer today . arini kne wat data base . fun actually cume kureng phm je . jnuh en. saiful xplain kt sorang2 . huu . sory la en. saiful , student2 anda mmg ceni . hee .

lately ni zai da len . aritu dye kte syg gler , now cam ta je . asal en ?? hmm . siyesly ta phm . ta pe la . lets time decide it .

mood : rse cm agak kecewa n hampe . huu :'((

p/s : miss my zai zairy .

life , life , life .

lame gilaa ta post entry kt blog .

gilaa punye bz . currently kt lab skunk neh . csc time . en saiful suh wat keja tp elek je dok post entry . na on9 fb sume kne blok . pdn mukaa :'))

trip pegi sabah tuk group ta jadi plak . tuka ngn g kl n genting . u know what , genting 2 . tmpat ak pling t'ngin na g ouh . tp cm ta besh lak bab group ak yg kne handle . so cm na enjoy sakan kt sane cm ta bole la kan ??? hmm , ta pe lah . jnj dpt jejak kaki kt sne pon oke :')

skunk ngah penin pk pase essay bel n dokumentari . essay jd payah gilaa bab dpt lecturer yg pngkat degree punyaa level . prof madya dr. agy . haa , rsekan . na APA CITATION la , pe ke mende laa . adei . dokumentari lak agy 1 hal . tataw na wat caner ni . driver , kameraman , tukang pegang skrip ta de laa . na arapkan zai , tp dye pon bz gak laa . lec kawen la , meeting la , trip la , program la . adei ak dpt bf gilaa bz kalah yb . hee :') ta pe la yangg , i'm understand .

skunk ni mcm2 konflik lak yg jadikk . jd cm ta besh lak geng kt uitm neh . b4 ni bhgie je . ak ni agy la tersepit . na bakup org kte ak ade aty , ta bakup t de lak yg kte ak jelesh . hiash . gilaa punyaa tersepit . ak ni slalu je dpt mslah yg ceni . dr skola dlu . saba je la cik cema ooi . smoge sume ni berakhir . ta bes la kn ?? dlu otak sume gilaa2 jer . skunk da ta mo lpk nan membe bab da de special one . pa dye centu ?? sumpaa rse cm sadis gilaa :'((

hmm . ta sume mende yg ta bes je jadik kt life ak . mende yg bhgie pon ade laa . alhamdulillah , rship ak nan zai skunk ni oke je . siyes sukaa gler nan zai yg skunk . skurang2nye ak taw yg dye mmg syg kt ak . hee :')) thanks syg .

lastly lyric ni khas tuk sume :

u make me smile like a sun,

fall like a bed,

sing like a bird,

dizzy in my head,

spin like a record,

crazy on the sunday night .

u make me dance like a fool,

forget how to breath,

shine like a gold,

buzz like a bee,

just to thought of you can drive me wild,

ouh , U MAKE ME SMILE :'))

teman2 :'(

eh . lme juge tidak mengupdate kn blog ini ea ?? sgt bz lately ni ngan asemen , klas , trip . fuhh . n now currently at ipoh wit my beloved family . cty CNY maa :')

haa . d kesempatan ini saye ingin mngucapkan xinnian kuaile 2 all my chinese frens laa esp . tong chuen , yong hong , kuan yee , st n sume2 la . semangat 1 m'sia la kunun ;'))

so sepanjang kt umah ni sgt bepuas aty , lepaking kt umh nan family . da dpt mkn mskn mak . nyummy ! then da jmpe zai sygs . omg ! rendu sial c kering tuh . n thanks pde alarm kete . sbb kaw ta ley bkak la ak dpt lepak lme ngn zai . hahaha . :) ily laa .

1 je ta satisfied agy bab still ta hang out n jmpe teman2 lme . kwn2 , taw ta yg ak sgt2 rendukn korunk . huu ;'(( bler na jmpe ni weyh .

n rendu jge pde buncet . bler na hang out , lepaking , spent time wat keje gler sme2 ni . sumpaa . ak rendu kaw sygs . rendu sgt ne menghabiskn mse besame . kly n kte memasing bz kn ??

** tbe2 mood beruba jd sedey n kecewe . na jmpe bestie :'(

ak rendu kaw la buncet !








rendu geng2 simgulz ;')






bff , ble mau ketemu agy ni ? taw ta yg ak rendu :'((

takziah :'(

her name is syaza kamil , but ktorg pggl dye jaja . dye kwn bek ak dr skola menengah agy . dr f1 smpai f5 n till skunk . ktorg da kwn hmpir 8tahun . she is nice person , sgt memahami n kdng2 sebgak sikit . sempoy gler , sumpaa syg dye ! ta penah gado siyes pon , kalo gado pon jap je . dats y la ktorg nye frenship still smpai skunk .



but , last thursday time ak na bukak pose , awer text n she say 'ayah jaja da meninggal , dye suh gtaw korunk n sdekahkn AL-FATIHAH tuk ayh dye '. sgt terkejut n sdey bler dnga .



ekceli ktorg knl ayh dye . dlu time dok ostel time ayh dye dtg , ktorg ske nyebuk gak kt ikot jmpe . yarh , admit yg ayh dye sgt bek . camne ta tumpahnye kuah kalo ta ke nasik kn ? ayh dye sakit stat dr time ktorg f5 lgy . n ak ngat agy cmner sdeynye jaja time dye gtaw ktorg yg ayh dye saket time 2 . n ak smpat g tngok ayh dye kt spital time 2 .



n after dat ALhamdulillah , ayh dye da oke da . n ta sangke lak saket blek n da smpai ajlnye . n ak arap ayh dye dletakkn d tempat2 golongan org yg beriman . org yg baek slalunye cpat kembali pade Allah .



jaja ,

ak kalo de kt tmpat kaw skunk , ak tataw caner je . n ak taw kaw sorang yg kuat kn ? saba je ea ? Allah lebih sygkn ayh kaw . n ktorg still ade tuk kaw k ? ak kalo leyh na g jmpe kaw skunk . na tnngkn kaw . tp skunk masing2 da jauh . ak arap sgt kaw tabah k ? ak syg kaw weyh .

miss u ja :'(

sunshine + rainbow = HAPPINESS :')

dear god ,
thanks coz fulfilled my prayer . swear ! i am very happy now :')


dear zai syg ,
thanks bab membahagiekn hdup sy skunk ni . n i know , now he whole-heartedly to prove that he is not like what they thinking about him . n he tried to win my heart back n now i'm already love him damn much ! thanks syg . n i hope it will be 4eva ea ?


dear frens ,
ak taw de gak yg ta ske hubungn kami ni . tp na wat caner je ? sumpa , ak syg gler kt dye n ak taw dye bkn cm pe yg korunk ckp k ? even dye ta rty na lyn ak , amek aty ak tp ak taw dye mmg sygkn ak . maybe org akn ckp ak bte bab tlalu syg kn ? tp pedulik ape ? ta slhkn kalo kami na mencbe perbetolkn blek sume ni . sala ke kami na bhgie ? ak taw korunk sygkn ak , dats y kn korunk hlng ak , tp sorry kwn2 , ni haty ak . kalo btol la pe yg korunk ckp 2 , bia ak yg tnggung nnt k ? neway , thanks sgt bab korunk care pase ak . n sumpaa , ak syg korunk . sorry :'( i'm just hope dat u all will pray 4 our happiness .


dear bobo ,
sumpaa rendu gler kt dye . na bwk ke penang ta ley bab besa sgt . mklum la , nek bas kn ? t org ckp ak ni hape je . hahaha . thanks sgt to zai bab blykn bobo ni tuk gf dye ni . ngee :) . even malu gler time dye suh ak plih 2 n alih2 dye jugak yg plih . n pling2 ta thn time dye pgg bobo 2 na bwk p ke parking , org sume tngok ouh . mst org kte dye sweet n hakikatnye mmg sweet :) da lme sy tnggu kekasih haty yg ceni . caya la syg :))


eh , lpe lak . bobo 2 adalah seekor anak patung beruang . comel gler sih . n sgt2 besar cm tuan dye . hahaha . ni dye :)




miss u la bobo + zai :)